Wednesday, October 24, 2012 ♥
Dear J,
You
may will never see this but just so i feel better typing it out.
Was put into a situation when i have to think of us once again.
Just when i thought i am totally over this shit and its nothing that affects me any longer, i realise the permanent effect of you on me. Not that it is affecting me or whatsoever, but more like instilled in me.
Its the thoughts i have, the way i think and the fear of anything and everything related.
The expectations i have and how i will always not fail to compare people to you.
Its so bad, made me so fucked up.
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Oh damn it too many problems in my head! Was just worrying about being broke and no money.
So hesitant to whether i should work part time. THEN, received a sms for part time. November all saturdays and sundays, everything sounds not bad.
Should i work or wad. I want to study, but i really need money to feed myself.
Fuckkkkkkkk!
Screw it i'm gona think tomorrow.
Feels good to be blogging again, its been a while.
How ironic that its bcos of J tt i started typing this post.